One Calorie In/One Calorie Out continued

In thinking about the statement I made in an earlier post about how I'd received less energy back as a writer than I'd put into the work, I realized that this isn't so. I was using money, the standard measurement of energy/labor in our society as my measurement, because I want so badly to be sustained materially by my writing, since I believe it is my vocation. Although I have not received an equal amount of money per work, I have received an equal amount of energy. From my book Siren, which I self published in 2002, I received some money, and lots of feedback, gratitude, compassion, understanding, praise--a multitude of reactions which were satisfying and have sustained me in going on. I have also written two and a half unpublished novels, which have been rejected over and over again as not being commercial enough. However, I can see now that the lessons I have learned from writing these books is the energy that has been given back to me, most specifically, the deepening of my intuitive powers. Writing has enabled me to walk through many doorways, to begin to live in other dimensions. I've been getting messages for a long time--I just didn't realize it until a copule of years ago because I always thought they would be in a voice that wasn't mine. As a writer, I have learned how to live in between the worlds. My current novel in progress, Black Swan, is a gift from the world between the worlds to give to this world, which leads me to my next post on the permaculture principle, edge effect......coming soon.