My Cosmology...

...is ever-changing like the universe
is a spiral galaxy
is a snake swallowing its own tail
is a worm that contains both female and male in one body
My cosmology is fluid, I learn something new about it everyday.
I believe we are made of light, that our souls can exist in many dimensions
beyond the material.
I believe that the soul chooses an earthly incarnation to learn about love,
the guiding force on Earth, and that death is just as beautiful as birth,
we have just been scared into fearing it because we have lost our ability,
having bought into the mass illusion that we can't see anything beyond
the material plane.
I bet you believe in ghosts, don't you?
We are spirits in the material world, The Police sang, in the oh so materialistic 80s.
I believe that all souls end up in the same place.
Although it would be nice to have advanced (by this I mean having learned the lessons our soul needed to learn--I am not implying a hierarchy of souls) at death, it doesn't matter if one's soul hasn't learned. The soul will come back again and again until it does, and then it will move on, until there are no more lessons to be learned--then the soul will become one with the center.
This belief has enabled me to let go of feeling like a victim in my own life. When I realized that my soul was attracting the experiences to me that I needed, I was shocked, overwhelmed, overjoyed, and the most grateful I have ever been in my life, for this is when unconditional love moved in to take blame's place.
This belief has also lessened the pain I felt at witnessing the horrible things that happen all over the world--people killed by terrorists, children dying from starvation, genocide, even The Holocaust--although this is very difficult and makes some people angry when I try to explain it. The soul gets to choose. Some souls choose to sacrifice their bodies to wake up humanity, or to generate compassion. I even believe that some souls don't need as long an earthly incarnation as others. They may only be here for a few years, or even for a few months, leaving their mothers' bodies before the separation of birth. This has nothing to do with what we call "good" or "bad" karma. I don't think the soul punishes us, it only presents us with what we need to keep letting go. All I can say, is that we are caught up in so many cycles that we can't see, our lives, in which we are so deeply embedded, are part of the continual struggle for balance on earth, and within the universe. believe that we are here to realize that we are all one being, like mycelium, the fungal web which connects the roots of trees beneath the ground to the tips of the branches.
I believe that emotions are very wise teachers. They control us so completely we don't even know we're being controlled. Once we let go and learn to flow with them, we realize what they are doing, and then we have the choice to work with them, or to struggle upstream. If we struggle, they will never let us go. We will always be angry, jealous, or depressed.
Love is not an emotion. It is beyond emotion. Love isn't suited well by one word.
Love is everything.
I have stood inside redwood trees that were two thousand years old,
and I have stood inside Medieval cathedrals in France.
They felt the same.
I believe that addiction is a substitute for ritual.
Humans are capable of alignment with the sacred. We have just forgotten.
I believe that now is a time of remembering.
I know that the world of physics supports many of my ideas, but I'm sorry that I don't know the details, beyond that matter consists of both particle and wave simultaneously, and that the observer has the ability to effect her environment on a cellular level.
Perhaps if someone does, they could share more details.
I believe our thoughts create our reality.
I believe that time might be ending.
This makes me happy!
I do not believe in just sitting back and watching what happens. What I am saying is not an excuse to live and let live. It is just a call to see the earth from a hawk's point of view. To search for patterns, to recognize that we have the ability to make choices all the time which can effect the patterns which make up our world, but if you've heard the call to do something, I believe that if you don't, your soul will rebel against you. I believe that this is what we call suffering.
I believe in these words from The Gospel of Thomas, one of the gospels left out of the standard Bible on which many of us were raised.

If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.

I believe that for most of my life I have been attracting experiences to stop me from bringing forth what is inside me, and I believe that the underlying self-hatred which made me do this is tied to the hatred we feel as a species for what we are doing to the earth. I believe that the earth is worth saving, but I also believe that the earth will one day die. The death of the earth could be as beautiful as our own deaths, but when we hasten toward them by poisoning OUR BODY, the one we all share, then we will experience OUR DEATH as terrifying. I believe that forgiveness is the key to letting go of our self-hatred. We can walk through the door and experience unconditional love whenever we choose. That is why we came to earth. Please love yourselves. Please love our mother. I believe that, yes, time is running out. The time for action is now. So make a vow to do what you can. My vow to myself, and to you, is to no longer be invisible, to be a light in dark places. But if you fail, forgive yourself. We are all going to the same place.